Benefits

This job didn't really pay much....but she stayed because the benefits were outstanding!!!

Hump Day

With your careful guidance....after days of frustration for both of you....on Hump Day you finally got everything in order and you started working together to a conclusion you could both be happy with!!!!

Monday ManCandy

 Look....I've been pretty sick the last couple of months....sometimes it looked pretty grim....but they can't keep a good sissy down for long!!!

I'm still not back to my regular slutty self just yet and sometimes I still need to be assisted in various things.....and as much as I enjoy being served....I'm looking forward to getting my own meals for myself soon!!!

ManCandy!!! So good...even if you didn't prepare it yourself!!!

Thank You

 

I want to thank you all for the good wishes and prayers....

You got me through some very dark times!!!

I can't thank my wife enough for updating the blogs....I always hated when a blogger just disappeared and you didn't know why....

I'm not 100%....not even close....but for the first time in months I feel like I'm getting better.

I'm going to post stuff....some new...some stuff that has been sitting in my drafts folder since forever...

But you will have to forgive me for not posting as regularly as I did....

Just grabbing the laptop from the table is more of an effort than ever....

I will post this across my blogs to make sure everyone sees this....

I wish I could thank you all in person....

I'm pretty sure we would all enjoy that....

But as I've said before....

I love you all!!!!

Kisses

Kaaren

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pick Me Up

 When my wife was leaving for the office this morning she asked me if I wanted her to pick up anything for me....

I told her there was a couple of things I'd really like....

She told me that the lipstick was no problem....she'd have to think about the other thing...

So Cute

 I'm beginning to understand why "Kaaren" enjoys writing this blog. There is the freedom of talking about things with hundreds of people that I would never discuss at all in person.

Last night "Kaaren" asked me if I was satisfied.

I didn't understand at first, but, then it dawned on me.

I told him that I hadn't felt very sexy lately, it's hard to be sexy and worried at the same time.

He told me that he was worried about me too, he said that he wants me to have orgasms. He said that I needed them.

I couldn't really argue with that. I have been a very sexual person since I was very young.

First alone, then with horny boys.

First in my hand, then in my mouth and finally inside me.

I loved it all.

Now I just find that my interest has waned as I tend to my sweet sissy husband.

But last night "Kaaren" wanted to make me happy.

He wanted to worship me as he's done so often.

I told him I was worried that he wouldn't be able to breathe.

Get ready, here's the cute part.

He smiled at me and said, "Don't you know, you've always left me breathless!"

How could I say no to that?

Mrs. K

 

 

 

 

Promising Signs

 I came home last night exhausted physically and emotionally.

It was a very long day at work and a very hard day to be working in NYC.

When I got home I really found myself hoping that "Kaaren" wouldn't need much from me.

It sounds terrible, I know, but I'm tired.

And still scared.

And I'm tired of being scared!

All of my life I've been able to take charge and fix the things that needed to be fixed, and I hate being powerless to help the one person that means more to me than anyone else in the world.

When I came in the door the health aide met me, as usual, to give me an update on "Kaaren".

She had a big smile. 

"Come see!" she told me.

I followed her up the stairs with a little trepidation.

When I went into the bedroom I found my sweet girl sitting up in bed.

Looking very pretty in one of his pastel blue nighties.

His makeup was done to perfection, and his hair was styled into a kind of updo!

But it was his smile that stopped me in my tracks, I suddenly realized I had not seen his sweet smile since all of this began!

"Doesn't he look pretty?" asked his aide, her name is Joanna.

"He looks beautiful!"

I tried not to notice the oxygen tubes that he still wore but as for the rest of him, I could have eaten him up right there and then!

Joanna told me that he had asked her to help him to look pretty for me and that she had been reluctant at first, but afterward the two of them had ended up enjoying themselves very much.

I gave her a tight hug which she returned, before she turned and left us alone.

I had tears in my eyes as I took "Kaaren's" hand and told her how pretty she was, and how much I enjoyed seeing her like this.

I kissed her ruby red lips and reached down to give her a squeeze.

She suddenly looked worried.

"I don't think I'm ready yet."

I told him that I understood, that I can wait for him, that I love him, that he made me so happy today.

He smiled his beautiful smile at me again, then he apologized. He was so exhausted from just this that he had to lie down again.

I smiled and stroked his pretty hair.

I told him I would wake him for dinner.

I stayed until his breathing became steady as he slipped into dreamworld.

Then I went and had a good cry in my room!

It was a promising sign but it also showed me how far he had to go.

Thank you all for your good wishes and prayers. I have shown them all to "Kaaren" and he asked me to thank you all.

Once again, Thank You All.

Mrs.K

 

 

What's happening Now

Since his last post "Kaaren" has been in and out of the hospital twice more.

It seems like every step forward leads to two steps back.

The doctors reassure me and I take him home, and in a day or two he's re-admitted.

It scares me.

Every time he comes home he seems diminished.

Smaller, weaker, less and less like himself.

He tries to be brave but all it does is make it all seem worse.

It's like a scene from a bad, tragic romance movie.

He can't do anything for himself at this point. My insurance, thank god, pays for a daytime aide which allows me to go to work. But I can't concentrate and the corporate sharks are circling. My superiors have assured me that my position is secure, but I'm sure that could change quickly.

I push all of that aside as I look at my sweet husband, looking so small and helpless, and my heart breaks a little bit more.

He's sleeping now. I know he feels bad when I cry but how can I help it.

He asked me to post an update over a week ago, and I wanted to, I really did.

Then he was back in the hospital again and his blogs were the furthest things from my mind.

He asked me about it today and I confessed that I hadn't done as he'd asked, he looked a little hurt and asked me to please do it soon.

I check on him all through the night, I make sure the oxygen tubes aren't tangled and that he's under the covers. It seems he feels the cold more than he used to.

And I feel the cold too, and I'm very afraid for him.

So there you have it.

Mrs. K