Friday, September 23, 2022

A Beautiful Sunset

 We were staying at my Boss's "Summer Place" up in the mountains and it was all so wonderful.
"Kaaren" had quickly found his favorite spot and almost every afternoon, he could be found sitting out on the veranda, looking out over the property, all the way to the green mountains beyond.
"It's what Heaven would look like", he said  when he first saw it.
I usually sat with him but sometimes I had to logon and do something to earn my pay.
I warned him not to stay in the sun for too long and came inside to do a little work via computer.
Afterward I took a break and must have dozed off.
When I woke I called out for "Kaaren".
He didn't answer.
I went out to the veranda, the sky was full of color, a beautiful sunset.
But my "Kaaren" was gone.
He had slipped away while I slept.
The Medical Examiner told me it was an aneurysm and there was nothing anyone could have done

But it was my fault.
I should have been there. I should have been watching over him.
But I wasn't, and my Sweetheart left me, and neither of us got to say goodbye.
It's been a couple of weeks since he's been gone and I am sorry I didn't let you know sooner.
But now you do.









  1. OMG I'm so sorry! bless you

  2. I had a feeling that a post like this would come at some point. I'm sad to know that my premonition was on the mark.

    And it's not your fault. I've run the same scenarios for me and my "forever person" through my mind so many times. I never got to say "goodbye" either but i know she knows .. and she'll be with me always. It's never a goodbye anyway, more like a, "until we meet again".

    I am crying right now, and while there's some part of it that is because I will miss Kaaren and the comments and discussions that made me laugh, and also made me think .. it's moreso that I know the battles / thoughts within your mind that will happen going forward. I've been there, and am still going through it. One practical word of advice, do not do anything rash, take your time, and if you can, put off big decisions for at least 6 months to a year. Emotions can get in the way of rational thought, and they come in waves.

    You and Kaaren had a relationship that made me happy to be within this 'kink', and it was so warm and loving, it came right off the screen. And when there can be such cruelty and inequity between the roles, it NEVER felt like that with you both. He worshipped you in all the best ways, and you cherished and let him be himself. That is something you can both be proud of, how authentic you could be, even when you had to hide some of it with family and friends.

    I want you to know that Kaaren truly touched my life, and for what you've done with him, and all the things you've said .. you have touched my life as well. Please do not hesitate to contact me if you need to converse or just need an ear to bend.

    Heaven is much a happier .. and kinkier! .. place, but it's left a hole down here on earth.

  3. Yours was such a beautiful marriage; thank you for sharing him with us all these years. We're so tremendously sad for your loss.

  4. Mrs. K So sorry for your and everyone’s loss. Please forgive yourself. Kaaren will be missed by many.

  5. I am so very sorry for your loss.

  6. Oh my goodness I am so sorry.

  7. So sorry for your loss. Kaaren will be greatly missed.

  8. So sorry for your loss we all feel your pain Bless you

  9. This rips my heart open. My brother died of a double aneurysm last December 5 days before Christmas.
    I started to suspect that something bad had happened.
    I just told my wife on the phone what happened. My wife and I live a life that sounds very similar to you and Kaaren. She didn't read it but I sent her links on occasion. She is shocked and saddened.
    I hope you can take comfort in the fact that I took so much good from Kaaren and so much fun. I never went a day without reading the three sissy blogs.
    These blogs have been a great contribution to so many lives.

    Thank you for everything.

  10. So sorry for your and our loss 😔 each loss is early and unseasonable but I know/hope she is happy and watching us

  11. I'm so very sorry for your loss, Kaaren will be missed by all of us.

  12. I will miss reading all of the blogs that I read here, from both of you. Your love for each other showed clearly. THANK YOU for sharing your life with us, LOVE IS LOVE!

  13. I'm so sorry 😞 !

  14. Allow me to say how sorry I am.

    I lost my Mother 60 days ago, and still think about her. Like Karen she died of an aneurysm, she was supposedly sitting on the edge of her bed getting ready for bed and Snap, she was gone.

    One thing I can tell you is no one knows when their time will come, it's best to just accept it.
    Instead of blaming yourself, just think that Karen was sitting back and watching the sky. Probably enjoying the scene and hopefully didn't even know what hit her.
    Having lost several relatives to Cancer, I would rather check out fast than lay in a Hospital Bed just waiting for my time to end.

  15. Mrs K.,
    I am so very very sorry for your loss. I do believe in my pink heart that the two of you had a wonderful and very special marriage. I can not thank you or Kaaren enough for sharing your lives with all of us sissies. Please believe me that the spirit of Kaaren will forever live in this sissy's heart. I hope and pray you will be ok and want to thank you so much for being such a loving and understanding wife.

    May God Bless,

  16. I wanted to talk to you Kaaren Sissy in private, but I can't, I need your help and your followers to understand if I'm still a man or a feminized one or something else, this is my story
    I am 32 years old and a virgin. I had a few girlfriends when I was little, but I wanted to kiss them and break up with them. I didn't want to have sex. I have been taking testosterone supplements for 10 years, for example in July 2021 my testosterone was 1800 ng/dl and I paused until July 2022 with therapy and when I measured it in July the testosterone had dropped to 28 ng/dl. I decided to have sex at the age of 28, but when I went to bed with my girlfriend, I didn't have an erection, my penis was asleep. I've been trying to have sex for 4 years but I can't. In my early 30s I started watching subliminal programs and hypnosis and other sissify about feminism and I like to wear dresses. when I'm naked I look at my butt, I don't like men, I like girls, I have a tight butt and a big butt, while my penis is 1 cm, while when I'm erect and masturbating it's 9. cm (3 inches) I want to know if I am a feminized woman, sissy or trans if you have read my story, I really wanted you to answer my question, what do you think, if you don't want to, here is my email, you can write to me by email

  17. I am so sorry you are a very special lady Mrs K. I will always think of Karren on Modays, I always looked forward to my Man Candy!

  18. So, what are you going to do? Will you continue this?

  19. There are no words, Mrs.K, that can express the heights of our love for Kaaren or the depths of our sorrow for you. Goddess and I will keep you in our thoughts.

  20. Oh dear God! I just saw a link to this post from somewhere on Tumblr.

    I'm so sorry for your loss.