It Was Just Perfect

Before he got sick Kaaren wanted to renew our wedding vows and I agreed that it would be a lovely gift for us on our anniversary.

This time he wanted to be a bride too.

I wanted more than anything to give that to him but we never got the chance.

This was one of Kaaren’s dreams that never came true. 

I hope that in the next life he’ll meet me in his pretty gown!

Mrs K

Ms. Sharon Made it Clear

This is the oldest post in Kaaren’s draft folder for this blog.

I don’t know who this Ms Sharon is. Probably someone who commented earlier.

Kaaren is very correct here. I was always planning ahead while he was just enjoying himself.

I’m enjoying going through my Sweethearts posts and it’s kind of like having a conversation with him about his life.

I hope you enjoy these.

Mrs K.

Quitting

"Put that cigarette out Baby....put this in your mouth instead!!!"

This could end smoking in just a few months....at least among males!!!!

Some Thoughts

Today is Kaaren’s birthday.

I’m trying not to cry for him.

I’m trying to think of the good times we had.

But I miss him more every day.

 I've been thinking about what to do about my Kaaren's blogs.

I have decided that I will leave them up for people to get to know Kaaren, and I felt it would be disrespectful to remove them.

Kaaren loved the blogs. He liked to play and tease and tell, if not all, as much as he could get away with.

In all the years that he was doing this I only made him take down a couple of his posts that I thought made him too identifiable.

My career counted on avoiding scandal, and stories of my sissy husband sucking my lover's big cock didn't really seem like a career enhancing addition to my resume'.

But I digress.

Kaaren has left literally hundreds of posts in her drafts folder on these blogs. 

I leave it to you, his audience, should I post them or is that kind of morbid?

I can see just from sampling them that, at least some of them weren't quite finished.

I truly dislike the idea of throwing away my sweethearts work.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

Mrs. K.

A Beautiful Sunset

 We were staying at my Boss's "Summer Place" up in the mountains and it was all so wonderful.

"Kaaren" had quickly found his favorite spot and almost every afternoon, he could be found sitting out on the veranda, looking out over the property, all the way to the green mountains beyond.

"It's what Heaven would look like", he said  when he first saw it.

I usually sat with him but sometimes I had to logon and do something to earn my pay.

I warned him not to stay in the sun for too long and came inside to do a little work via computer.

Afterward I took a break and must have dozed off.

When I woke I called out for "Kaaren".

He didn't answer.

I went out to the veranda, the sky was full of color, a beautiful sunset.

But my "Kaaren" was gone.

He had slipped away while I slept.

The Medical Examiner told me it was an aneurysm and there was nothing anyone could have done

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But it was my fault.
I should have been there. I should have been watching over him.
But I wasn't, and my Sweetheart left me, and neither of us got to say goodbye.
It's been a couple of weeks since he's been gone and I am sorry I didn't let you know sooner.
But now you do.

Mrs.K

 

 

 

 

 

 

Happy Birthday Kaaren

 Today is "Kaaren's" birthday and I thought it would be nice if he received some happy birthday wishes from you.

"Kaaren" still doesn't have access to her electronics and won't have till, maybe next week, but I will show him your responses.

It's a special birthday this year as we both had our doubts about being able to celebrate it.

"Kaaren" is doing well. Rest and some exercise has been good for him.

The place we are is wonderful, and I will explain all that later.

But please, cheer him up, a simple Happy Birthday note would mean the world to him. 

And to me.

Mrs. K

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So...

 

"Kaaren" wrote this a couple of weeks ago but never posted it for reasons that I will make clear soon. Just so you know what's going on.

We're both OK. Kaaren hasn't had access to any of his electronics for a few weeks and won't have access till we get home.

I want him to rest and I'm being pretty strict about it.

I understand all of your concern and I'm touched by the affection you all have for my sweet husband.

I will update this soon.

Mrs. K 

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 So....I came home....

I was angry that she had ignored me.....

I was angry that I had to spend another night in the damned hospital....

But mostly I was angry that she ignored me....

When she came and brought me home in the morning neither of us had much to say....

And when we got home she told me that we had to talk....we couldn't leave it as it was....

So I met her in the living room and crawled up over her knees....I flipped my skirt up and left my panties on because...sometimes....when we talk she likes to leave them on....

She didn't spank me as I expected....instead she opened up to me about how the last few months had affected her....

She told me of the anxiety.....the fear....the helplessness she'd felt....

By the time she was done she was sobbing.....

It broke my heart to hear the sadness and fear she'd felt....

I was crying too....my anger melted away as I put myself in her shoes....

She apologized for forcing me to the hospital but told me that she would do it again....she was afraid of losing me and would do what she thought best to keep us together for a long....long time....

Then she astounded me!!!

She told me to stand up and then to rake her place sitting in the chair....

Then she put herself over my lap.....and told me that I should make her feel my frustrations....she was ready!!!!

I put my hand on her beautiful bottom but I couldn't bring myself to spank her....

She was right to be scared.....she was always right.....and I adored her sweet bottom!!!!

I had seen her spanked by a few of her lovers over the years.....and I admit that I kind of envied them a little.....

But I couldn't......

Then I was sobbing.....

We went to bed together later and just held on to each other.....

Maybe it would be OK....

I still love her more than anything....more than my own life.....