One of Those Days

 Today was one of those days.

I was just walking down the street on my way to the train station and I passed a little boutique. It’s the same shop that I’ve passed by a thousand times before but today for whatever reason it caught my attention.

There was a lovely green dress in the window. Scandalously short and nothing i would ever remotely consider wearing myself. But i caught myself thinking that Kaaren would look adorable in it, and then I was crying again.

I quickly got hold of myself and wiped the tears away and continued on my way.

Some days are like that, I’ll just be fine one moment and then something will remind me of my Sweetheart and that’s it.

I’m still learning how to come to terms with my loss.

I know many friends and others who tell me that I have to “get over it” and frankly I don’t know if I ever will.

Do you think that, maybe, there’s only one person that is meant to be with you?

I’ve had ”lovers” before but there has only been one man I’ve ever really loved and now he’s gone 

Going through his unpublished blog posts has been hard, and at the same time, quite a bit of fun.

I “hear” his voice as I read his musings and stories.

I sometimes sleep with his favorite nightgown and I can smell his scent on it. Sometimes it brings a smile and sometimes it brings tears.

Like today, imagine, a little green dress could stop me in my tracks and leave me a wreck.

Just a stupid little dress,but he really would have been so pretty in it.

And it would have made him so happy.

Me too.

Mrs K