I Love It

My goodness, my Kaaren was such a slut.

He almost never said no to me.

And he had the cutest girliest ass!

He loved making himself completely available to me and a few select friends.

He was so much fun!

Mrs K

Same As Last Year

A Christmas post that Kaaren never got around to finishing..

I added just a little and I don’t think Kaaren would mind.

In some ways this year is harder than last year.

I’ll be spending Christmas alone with my memories this year, not for lack of offers from various friends and family.

I just feel like I’d like to be alone this time.

I hope you all have a merry Christmas.

Mrs K

A GoodNight Kiss

I really miss this.

I’m going to my brothers house for Thanksgiving this year. I didn’t really enjoy any holidays last year as the hurt was just still raw and overwhelming.

But I’m a little better now than I was then.

I still feel horribly alone but I’m more used to it now.

I’m glad I still have family to keep me company and I feel the love from them. I’m counting on that to get me through.

I’m thankful for the joy I’ve had. I just selfishly wish I could have that again.

They say that time heals all wounds but I think there are some wounds that never heal. They just hurt a little less.

Be thankful for all your blessings, enjoy your life, take the time to give love and hold your loved ones tight.

Have a nice Thanksgiving.

Mrs K

Playtime

Kaaren was a very sexual person.

There were many times that I wasn’t in the mood to play. Sometimes all I wanted was to relax, watch a movie, eat some popcorn or nachos, then head to bed and get a good nights sleep.

On the other hand I don’t think Kaaren was ever uninterested. No matter what else he was doing, sex came first.

Mrs K 

Last Time

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Hump Day

 One of my favorite fantasies was always to watch two sissies together.

I have no idea why but it was always there in the back of my mind.

Thankfully it was one that we did get to live out in real life.

I know Kaaren wrote about our neighbors “Steve & Kathy” and how we all discovered our secret lives.

Steve made a very pretty Stephanie and he was also submissive to his lovely wife, much like Kaaren was submissive to me.

It was so hot for Kathy and I to have them put on a sissy show for us, they both agreed that the hardest thing for them was when we made them kiss.

Kaaren told me that kissing Stephanie felt far more intimate than even being fucked by him.

I can’t say I understand that but I didn’t have to understand it.

Kaaren was complicated.

But he was my good girl and did as he was told. 

Our friends moved away some time ago but they returned for Kaaren’s funeral service and it was great to see them again. 

Mrs K

Pigtails

This could very easily be me and Kaaren.

Except I’m the brunette and he was the blonde.

And he looked just adorable in pigtails.

Everyone thought so.

Mrs K

Some Sissies

I always enjoyed watching Kaaren get ready in the morning.

Sometimes I would pretend to be asleep while he was doing his makeup and taking care of his choice of clothes for the day.

I have no idea why that would turn me on but it did. Very much.

So much that I would end up having him ruin his pretty face taking care of my needs.

After all, what’s the point of being married to a submissive sissy if you don’t get to use him when you need him!

Then he could fix his makeup while I showered and afterward we would have a nice breakfast together.

Those were good times.

Mrs K

It Was Funny

The truth is that my sister didn’t really like Kaaren all that much.

She didn’t think he was good enough for me or for our family.

Obviously Kaaren never had any type of sexual contact with her but on occasion she’d let him give her a foot massage. 

Kaaren gave really nice foot massages.

He did have many fantasies about scenes like this one 

I’m sure a lot of wives would be upset about their husband fantasizing about having any kind of sex with their sister but I found it funny.

She plainly thought very little of Kaaren but he still thought quite a bit about her.

And although I might be very open about things regarding our sex life I had no interest in having a threesome with my sister..

I had no interest and I don’t really believe that Kaaren did either. It was just a fantasy.

But then, I had lots of fantasies of my own too.

Mrs K

Taking a Break

Yes Kaaren and I double dated a couple of times.

It was a lot of fun for both of us.

Sometimes we’d giggle like little girls while we made the guys wait for us to come back and resume where we’d left off.

Mrs K

Careful What You Wish For

Another example of Kaaren being silly.

He could make me laugh so easily.

It wasn’t always about sex, sometimes it was just about having fun.

Mrs K

Close The Curtains

We were a little more discrete than this although, even with all of his whining, Kaaren loved the humiliation of being exposed as the sissy he was.

It made me a little wet too.

And I would have him spend some time making sure that I was completely satisfied afterwards.

I loved watching him blush.

Mrs K

One of Those Days

 Today was one of those days.

I was just walking down the street on my way to the train station and I passed a little boutique. It’s the same shop that I’ve passed by a thousand times before but today for whatever reason it caught my attention.

There was a lovely green dress in the window. Scandalously short and nothing i would ever remotely consider wearing myself. But i caught myself thinking that Kaaren would look adorable in it, and then I was crying again.

I quickly got hold of myself and wiped the tears away and continued on my way.

Some days are like that, I’ll just be fine one moment and then something will remind me of my Sweetheart and that’s it.

I’m still learning how to come to terms with my loss.

I know many friends and others who tell me that I have to “get over it” and frankly I don’t know if I ever will.

Do you think that, maybe, there’s only one person that is meant to be with you?

I’ve had ”lovers” before but there has only been one man I’ve ever really loved and now he’s gone 

Going through his unpublished blog posts has been hard, and at the same time, quite a bit of fun.

I “hear” his voice as I read his musings and stories.

I sometimes sleep with his favorite nightgown and I can smell his scent on it. Sometimes it brings a smile and sometimes it brings tears.

Like today, imagine, a little green dress could stop me in my tracks and leave me a wreck.

Just a stupid little dress,but he really would have been so pretty in it.

And it would have made him so happy.

Me too.

Mrs K

The Future

Kaaren never really considered himself to be a man.

He didn’t act or think like any man I’ve ever known.

And that’s one of the many reasons that I loved him.

Mrs K

She's Not A Teenager Anymore

Kaaren could be a real charmer sometimes.

Yes, we grew older together but not nearly as old as I had hoped.

Mrs K

OH!!!

My Kaaren loved nipple play.

His nipples were very sensitive and he loved to have me pay attention to them.

I loved it too.

This was something we shared.

Mrs K

Saturday Matinee - A Galaxy Far Away

This one is obviously one of the first Saturday Matinee posts that Kaaren wrote.

It’s not the feature,it’s more of a “short”.

But it’s still fun and brought me a smile.

I hope you enjoy it too,

Mrs K

First love

I like this one very much, it captures a big part of the story of the love Kaaren and I shared.

Today is the sad anniversary of that terrible first night when I lost my Sweetheart.

I’m still heartbroken but I’ve stopped crying every day.

But today I’m just reliving that last day, that last time I saw him smiling, the last time I told him that I loved him.

Today I can’t say I miss him more than any other day, after a year of missing him today makes it feel a little more painful.

Thank you very much for your nice comments on these posthumous posts, I hope you enjoy them.

Mrs K

It Was Just Perfect

Before he got sick Kaaren wanted to renew our wedding vows and I agreed that it would be a lovely gift for us on our anniversary.

This time he wanted to be a bride too.

I wanted more than anything to give that to him but we never got the chance.

This was one of Kaaren’s dreams that never came true. 

I hope that in the next life he’ll meet me in his pretty gown!

Mrs K

Ms. Sharon Made it Clear

This is the oldest post in Kaaren’s draft folder for this blog.

I don’t know who this Ms Sharon is. Probably someone who commented earlier.

Kaaren is very correct here. I was always planning ahead while he was just enjoying himself.

I’m enjoying going through my Sweethearts posts and it’s kind of like having a conversation with him about his life.

I hope you enjoy these.

Mrs K.

Quitting

"Put that cigarette out Baby....put this in your mouth instead!!!"

This could end smoking in just a few months....at least among males!!!!

Some Thoughts

Today is Kaaren’s birthday.

I’m trying not to cry for him.

I’m trying to think of the good times we had.

But I miss him more every day.

 I've been thinking about what to do about my Kaaren's blogs.

I have decided that I will leave them up for people to get to know Kaaren, and I felt it would be disrespectful to remove them.

Kaaren loved the blogs. He liked to play and tease and tell, if not all, as much as he could get away with.

In all the years that he was doing this I only made him take down a couple of his posts that I thought made him too identifiable.

My career counted on avoiding scandal, and stories of my sissy husband sucking my lover's big cock didn't really seem like a career enhancing addition to my resume'.

But I digress.

Kaaren has left literally hundreds of posts in her drafts folder on these blogs. 

I leave it to you, his audience, should I post them or is that kind of morbid?

I can see just from sampling them that, at least some of them weren't quite finished.

I truly dislike the idea of throwing away my sweethearts work.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

Mrs. K.